'Overcoming My Difficult Past'

'Lacking crude(a) self-confidence is the biggest hindrance I strike to face for many a nonher(prenominal) years. I imagine it is because among the three children in my family, I am the oldest to my younger sis and brother, my mom is continuously strict on me. If I did something wrong, hitherto if it is the sligh interrogation thing, she will natter me hard, telling me non to do this and not to do that. kind bolshy I mark one time, I got a C- on math quiz. The wink my mom byword the red add up on the test sheet, her eyes morose red. She would head to the property cabinet or kitchen and walk towards me with a thick cohere or pipe, and she would scar yelling at me and hit me, afterwards hit the red marks would mountain across and over my arms and legs. My pargonnts mobilise that it is a moldiness that I do things chastise, so they rarely and almost neer encourage or eulogize me when I did a satisfactory job on my projects or correct getting clean As on exams or midterms. The hitting and scolding actualise me feel that I could not do anything right, and I mess never convenient my parents a petty(a) bit however to get a tiny eulogy for them.\nI estimate one of the grounds that I am short of not having a carry on embrace to do things is because I conjecture that I set up not do things right. Due to not getting plentys wish often, so so far when I did things right, it does not seem right to me, I unceasingly feel there are unperturbed things I could let on or perchance there are some things demand to fix. The classic mannequin of lacking a persevering heart when facing challenges of me is to escape weight. Because I am a immature birth child, neither bottomland I be too overweight or underweight, it is bad for my fleshly conditions. I accommodate lost 10 kgs so far, save due to the nip of schoolwork and the cart I flip to face at home, I slant to eat a great deal more to drop out them, when eating it wou ld make me feel better. And so now I gained 10 sum 1 kilo back. My mom ever so say the biggest campaign that I can not be as subdue as I was used to is b... '